"What the hell am I doing? Man, something is seriously wrong with me!

July 26, 2001, 11:16 am Yesterday, the newboss came in and told us that we had to see PsychoExGirlfriend.com; this site features 53 mp3's of messages left on some fellow's voicemail from his "psycho exgirlfriend". I expected to hear some lady going ape-shit, screaming and cussing and threatening to eat your dog or something. What I actually heard was much more disturbing.

She was crying and complaining about how he let her down and all this stuff and at first, I could distance myself and think, Wow, this person has lost it. Doesn't she know that forcing someone to be with you isn't the kind of relationship that's good? But then I heard her say things that I've said or thought in the past. And then she said, What the hell am I doing? Man, something is seriously wrong with me! It's funny that I was thinking the same thing; Why am I listening to this poor lady cry her eyes out for this guy? What inspired this guy to make mp3's of her voice mails? Why am I so heartlessly listening to this lady expose her weaknesses?

My copy of akira special "happy-fun" edition dvd came yesterday! it's in this especially cool tin and has a second dvd with interviews and music and other "the making of" type stuff. As you probably guessed, as soon as i got home, jerkface and I watched it. And as you probably suspected, we watched it with the japanese dialog and english subtitles. I couldn't get over how many freakin' changes they made in the translation! Lots of little, stupid things and also big important things that made me understand the story better. I definately prefer the japanese voice acting. And the color and sound were so incredible!! I've been watching this crappy, old dub of a rental! Wow. To sound lame: It's like watching it again, for the first time!

The only negative thing about the whole ordeal is that it was shipped United States Postal Service which means one, horrible thing: the creepy mailman. He really scares me. He never shuts up and he always, without fail, tries to leave the room through the closet door. He's totally insane.

I just realized that I've worked at Internet Tool & Die for an entire year, every work day (with the exception of all holidays that kurt says are "real") without a single break. This kinda sucks. No wonder I'm getting burned out. No wonder I haven't learned jsp yet. I have no "computer enthusiasm" when I get home. I should talk to kurt about this.