trying to keep my mind from evil

June 05, 2001, 11:46 am

Last night, I tried. I tried so hard to get to bed early. I only played an hour of Phantasy Star Online and stopped reading around 1:30am (lately I've been staying up reading 'til 3:00 am which is just dumb!). But I couldn't sleep.

While I was trying to relax and convince myself to sleep, I was thinking about how I missed one of my friends, Davis. We'd been friends for such a long time, but we were very bitter towards each other during my senior year. We both changed a lot during that time (or rather, he changed and I didn't). We used to understand each other so well. We used to climb buildings together and stay up all night listening to enkindel and falling forward and endpoint.

Maybe I just miss that time in my life. I was pretty carefree and had lots of really close friends. Plus, there were always girls; if I wasn't dating someone, at least I always had a crush. :)

And I was thinking about getting in touch with Davis, just hanging out or something. I hear he's living in Bowling Green. But driving down there blindly would be stupid and fruitless; I don't know my way around there and I don't have a clue where he's actually living.

I should just call his mom and ask her if she has his phone number (but sometimes they aren't speaking to each other, so she might not know). Then I was thinking, I don't have long distance service... I could buy one of those phonecard things, but I think the rates on them suck compared to regular longdistance... I could use my parents phone, but I'd have to ask permission and I can hear the conversation now...

Mom, may I make a phone call?

Who are you going to call?

A friend.

Who?

You don't know him.

Ugh. I have these arguments with my mother in my head sometimes. And I'll get mad at her. You would think that way, wouldn't you?!?, I think to myself. What the hell?