I Feel Ill When I Think of You.

December 01, 2003, 11:40 am

Ugh. My stomache hurts. And I went to get some water from the refridgerator and JB left his CPK leftovers in there all weekend and they're so foul.

My Ill feelings match my bad mood. I want to be bitter, to vomit up poison. I want to be hysterical and lash out without reason.

I want to be responsible and polite and courteous and respectful. And in the same breath I want to be irrational and inconsiderate and cruel.

Ugh. What the fuck am I doing? I'm sure I'll pull myself out of this mood. I just need to forget for a while.